* Screwed *
Thursday, October 21, 2004
got my overall grades n marks. got a D(50)for maths, F(33) for chem and F(34) for bio
suprisingly itz not from my ST but from miss soh. why her? itz becoz of the yunnan trip thingy. she wants to noe whether im going to retain or go poly coz teh yunnan thing is sub. by the moe. yes RETAIN. a HIGH chance of getting RETAIN. tats wat she said n after askin my st she also sae not likely to get promoted. i cannot hold back my tears tat i cried. not infront of miss soh. i was desperately trying to hold the freakin tears but i failed... wanna thank shaline for being there juz now. thanks ya. i donno wats wrong wif me. i couldnt stop my self from crying. ic ried again on teh bus on the way home. even as typed this freakin entry im forcing myself not to cry. stupid sak. such a cry baby!!!! to make it werst i need to make a decision whether im RETAINING or going POLY by tomoro n tell miss soh by the end of teh dae. WAT THE HELL! she think itz so easy. ERGHHHHH! im planning to pon skool tomoro. want to avoid her and everybody else. she asked me to discuss with my parents and ST about it. my ST.. haiz.. cannot make it! she sae she doesnt even noe the overall marks yet. like wat the hell. discuss with my parents? i don even noe how to break the news to them. moreover both are in the night shift todae. discuss my foot seh.
i donno wat to do. im so depressed, confuse and angry. theres the freakin pw. my st was asking whether i feel like continueing or not. like wat the hell. give me a break seh. reain poly retain poly retain poly?????? theres one thing im sure of. if im gonna retain im so gonna change my subject combi. no more BIO for me. freakin bio.
the tot of being retain is bad enuff. than theres the exco thingy. can i quit the exco if i retain? if im gonna retain i think itz better for me to concentrate in my studies rite? i donno. talked to syima juz now.told her tat if cannot im gonna quit odac. i donno wat made me said tat. i don want too but... haiz... teh results are killing me and makin me crazee..
haiz..im too depressed to continue.. aniwaez goodluck to the j2s who ar taking the BIO prac tomoro ya!
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
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