i THINK i made my decision and i HOPE im making the right one. so wish me luck ya! i decided tat i should leave JC and im gonna go poly instead. i might change my decision BUT 90% im gonna go to a poly.

its really hard to come to a decision. but after weighing the pros and cons i guess poly is the most proper choice. moreover my parents pluz my grandma wants me to go to a poly instead. my parents didnt force me ah but they think tat maybe poly is better for me.

itz really difficult to part with my classmates, odac peeps, odac and everything else in mj. so many nice memories. this year hasnt been a total waste. got to know my 3 months mates 04S204, my 04S206 mates, ODAC peeeps and U noe who! HAHAHAHAHA. wat the hell. juz kidddin. :P

my classmates, my sec skool frens tried to pyscho me to stay but sorry guyz. im juz afraid that i wont be able to ace durin my A'levels and not get to a uni ( tat also if get promoted in 2006) don wan to take tat risk. moreover im not the academically incline kind of person. im more to a practical kind i think. so poly seems to be a better option.

i really want to stay. tehres so much things that i look forward to next year especially the odac activities. theres river rafting comp, SAILING!!!, camps.... but wat to do. no pain no gain. than i cant go for the overseas cip trip to yunnan. tats so sad. i was looking forward to it for the experience. haiz.. i want to say sorry to the excos. guess i let u guyz down. watever i said durin the interview i didnt manage to fulfill it. sorry ya. also not fogetting cherie. sorry i cant really help you with the yunnan thingy but juz tell me if u need help with the games or anything ya.

ok let me update u guyz wat happen so far ya.

on mondae i was astounded to receive a call from my mum saying that she n my dad will be comin down to skool at 4pm. my ST didnt even tell me bout it ah. sheesh. my st can really be such a pain in the ass at times. well aniwaes tot it was gonna be parents n my st onli but NO... it was parents ST n HOD(mine happens to be the HOD of maths). ya so we talked bout other alternative route to university... i should consider my options carefully since i werked hard n yet stiu get tat kind of shitty results..blablabla. that kind of stuff u noe. i did told them tat if i was gonna retain, im gonna change my sub combi to further maths instead of bio. than this blardie HOD of maths looked at my result slip and give me " U got a freakin D for ur C*maths and you're thinking of taking FURTHER maths!!!" kind of look u noe! asshole! i was kin dof pissed also. y ala i noe my maths grade very pathetic la! cannot qualify to take f*maths! idiot! BAAAAH!

wanna sae congrats to those who got promoted and advance and not forgettin those who were given a chance to retain instaed of being asked to leave the skool. sometimes when i see some people desperately wans to get retain makes me think twice of poly. bah! im confuse enuff! aniwae theres this 2 guys A & B in my class who got the same grade OOF. but onli B got advance. most of my classmates think tat the A should get advanced rather than B. this freakin B when he noes he got advance he started askin the OBVIOUS."wat A u didnt get advanced?" asshole rite! idiot seh. trying to make people feel werst. puhleeez ah! i swear i will kill him if i could.

got my result slip already. itz really painful when i look at it. both F miss an AO by 1 MARK ah! hahaha. maybe itz juz faith ya. probly theres something else for me. this means that i have to give up my dreams of becumin a doc/ forensic/ PAKAR SAKIT PUAN ( gynae) :P hahhahaha gotta reset my goals n ambitions. i don really haf an idea wat to do rite now but im thinking.

hm.. im planning to take Chinese lessons during the holidaes. learn how to write and speak chinese! kewl huh! maybe i can make full use of the time to learn lotz of new stuff! hahahahaha i wan to learn how to play guitar ah! hehehehehehhe! so wish me luck ya! CHERIE must help me in CHINESE AH! ahakz!

once again i wanna say thanks for the encouragement u guyz been giving me! u guyz rox! even though i won be in JC animore hope we will still be in contact ya! love u guyz lotz!!! gonna miss u guyz lotz! 1:16 PM

Karang Guni job is not so easy ah! itz one freakin tiring job!!! gosh. yesterdae we did 24 blocks of flats altogether. actualli there was supposed to be 26 but the other group n the other area need the lorry so we had to stop. itz seriously tiring but actualli quite fun at times. some of the residents are quite nice. tehy actualli prepared it before hand n place it outside. how kewl!! ergh but we haf to compete with the karang guni man seh! somem of our stuff he took it lor! hahahaha but from wat mr aidil said we probly exceeded our target! hahahahah! alritez! way kewl seh!
my leg was failing me ah by the end of the dae. head for the bed when i reached home! hahahahha. rite after prayers i slept till the next dae! wahahahahah!

this morning after sahur i didt sleeep. cannot sleep. so i did the oral presentation slides and downloaded some stuff ( which i found out tat my comp doesnt support the prog! blardie idiot! i waited liek 2 hrs for the prog to load ah!!!!!). i completed the slides in 1 hour n i had to wait for the prog to finish download n i was bored so i decided to CLEAN my room! i mean realli clean it ah! fuyoh. i reallii throw a way lotz of stuff. the garbage area near the lift is full of my old stuff. hahahha while cleaning theers tons of rubbish ah. i stiu haf my primary one practice ws ah. hahaha teh paper is damn yellow already! sheesh. while cleaning saw look thru some stuff. i realise that the sweeet n pen that priscilla(odac) gif me durin their step down is stiu in the envelope ah! hahahaha im planning not to use the pen n im not gonna eat the sweeet ah! hahahaha! there were dusts eevrywhere which coz me to sneeze from morning till now! hahhahahahaha! but all the cleaning up was worth it ah! cleaner and nicer to look at already! hahahaha. erm... onli left with under the bed to clean up! ahakz! after cleaning up i lie down on the bed for a while! hahahaha fell asleep till 1 pluz like tat!

followed my parents to buy my lil bro his raya clothes. fuyoh! they spent like 200+ like in one dae ah! n itz juz for my two lil bro ah! madness! craziee seh. but it was fun going out with them!

this week goona be a horrible week ah! malay everydae! who can take it seh. AHHHHHHH tomoro malay period do MALAY COMPO! hahahahhahahaah wish me luck seh! donno how the hell im gonna survive! saveee meeeeeee!!!!!


2:25 PM

Thankz for teh encouragement ya! u guyz rox! ya told my parents already. my dad ask me to think about it ferst n he will talk to me bout it tomoro while my mum ask me go poly instead.

cherie is not ur fault la! so chill ya gerl! aniwae.. fat is ok. when i ask u go out i haven get my results yet!the reason i asked u out was becoz i wanna pon the pw period! hahahah!

ya im ok rite now. sheesh cant belive i was tat EMO ah juz now. aniwae thankz ya! wherever i choose to go im sure we will stiu be in contact! love u guyz lotz!

1:31 PM

got my overall grades n marks. got a D(50)for maths, F(33) for chem and F(34) for bio
suprisingly itz not from my ST but from miss soh. why her? itz becoz of the yunnan trip thingy. she wants to noe whether im going to retain or go poly coz teh yunnan thing is sub. by the moe. yes RETAIN. a HIGH chance of getting RETAIN. tats wat she said n after askin my st she also sae not likely to get promoted. i cannot hold back my tears tat i cried. not infront of miss soh. i was desperately trying to hold the freakin tears but i failed... wanna thank shaline for being there juz now. thanks ya. i donno wats wrong wif me. i couldnt stop my self from crying. ic ried again on teh bus on the way home. even as typed this freakin entry im forcing myself not to cry. stupid sak. such a cry baby!!!! to make it werst i need to make a decision whether im RETAINING or going POLY by tomoro n tell miss soh by the end of teh dae. WAT THE HELL! she think itz so easy. ERGHHHHH! im planning to pon skool tomoro. want to avoid her and everybody else. she asked me to discuss with my parents and ST about it. my ST.. haiz.. cannot make it! she sae she doesnt even noe the overall marks yet. like wat the hell. discuss with my parents? i don even noe how to break the news to them. moreover both are in the night shift todae. discuss my foot seh.

i donno wat to do. im so depressed, confuse and angry. theres the freakin pw. my st was asking whether i feel like continueing or not. like wat the hell. give me a break seh. reain poly retain poly retain poly?????? theres one thing im sure of. if im gonna retain im so gonna change my subject combi. no more BIO for me. freakin bio.

the tot of being retain is bad enuff. than theres the exco thingy. can i quit the exco if i retain? if im gonna retain i think itz better for me to concentrate in my studies rite? i donno. talked to syima juz now.told her tat if cannot im gonna quit odac. i donno wat made me said tat. i don want too but... haiz... teh results are killing me and makin me crazee..

haiz..im too depressed to continue.. aniwaez goodluck to the j2s who ar taking the BIO prac tomoro ya! 8:15 AM

got back some of the promo papers back. one werd. screwed. got a freakin F for Bio. 39/120. how kewl huh. talkin bout this freakin results is makin me mad! ergh! well for chem.. let see... they are trying to kill us slowly by giving one section per dae! got back the mcq. HAHA. got a freakin 15/40. bet im gonna get an F for chem. than maths probly another F. HAHA. ask mrs choong bout GP. haiz... another gone case. itz so freakin obvious im sooooo gonna be kick out. can i juz get the bloody withdrawal form now n juz quit skool so i can forget about everything esp PW. haiz.. malay was alrite la got an A2 but malay plz ah juz AO sub. i donno how im gonna tell my parents bout my freakin results. it will make me feel guilty even more. wel everything tat happen i cant blame it on anyone except myself.

i feeel like crying but watz the point rite.... haiz. im so angry, sad, dissapointed, confused.. i seriously donno wat to do rite now. my future seems dark. theres nothing for me to look forward too. guess all my dreams will onli be dreams.

got my retainers todae. it feels weird. cant eat n talk properly. haha. itz even werst than using braces i think. after the dental walked around at eastpoint for a while. bought the butterfly effect vcd. it was on sale at sembawang music shop. hahah cant wait to watch it. probly after csi or maybe i should pon skool n stay at home n slack since i know wats my results gonna be like. aniwae wanna wish the rest goodluck for teh promo results. bet u guys gonna get promoted!

well tats for now.. too stressed up to blog.

1:01 PM

the open house was ok la... happening, loud, noisy n the weather is freakin hot ah. in a way itz good but in some wayz bad. the good thing is tat all went well la but the bad thing i juz becum way way darker ah. saw quite a no. of the tpss students. their prelims results not bad ah. around 14 like tat. wat the hell. ahakz. not a lot of the gerls played ah. well u should noe why. skirt. than got a sec skool student who injured himself badly while playing the basketball games. OPEN FRACTURE seh. tats freakin serious seh. never seen a real open fracture b4. the bball game was suspended straight away after tat.

got a short exco meeting with mr sung juz now. one of the things we talked about was the retaining part. whoever is retained will stiu be in the exco till the stepdown thingy n cannot rerun for exco again. i was tempted to ask mr sung something but i decided to keep my mouth shut. well itz about wat if kena kick out instead of retain?

todae was the official last dae for the j2s. in the morning sang the skool song as a farewell for them. well things sure gonna be weird. hm... i notice tat the odac j2s LOVE to be on camera ah. esp tat fir. gosh. got tons of clips of them doin lame stuff. n tat wadi... think hes gonna be the next steven spielberg. hahaha gonna miss their lame stuff. :~( goodluck for ur A'levels ya!

todae was the last dae... saw him with his frens leaving the skool.. well i cant do anything but juz to whisper goodbye...

oh ya sorry i haven been tagging. cant tag at home coz my comp will hang. only taggie boards without pop up i can tag. hahahah will tag if got time to the skool lib ya! will put up some pics of open house if i can find any! ;P 4:27 PM

im so freakin tired!! been very busy preparing for open house. hahahah actualli cant wait for it coz the games kind of kewl!! well i hope tomoro is a success ya! haven beeen bloggin lately.. not tat i don wan to but been watching tv than fell asleep! hehe. ill summarise wat happen okies!

on mondae was a freakin busy dae. a lot of things to prepare for open house. pics and stuff. bla bla. in short mondae not so interesting la.

on tuesdae... fuyoh my ferst time talking to the whole sec 4s ah. bleargh. so paiseh seh. me cherie yas and malcolm the onli ones turn up. the onli reason i went back to tpss coz i was bored. ya so we talked about our personal experience ah at the same time PROMOTING the intensive english prog. a week b4 english O's. well i realli think it werks ah coz from a D7 for prelims to a B3 for oOs was quite an achievement for me ah. the strict marking realli helps ah! aniwae i blabber lotz of nonsense! hahahaha annouce MJ open house to them also! :P oh ya coming back to skool was another good thing! got a job at the bookshop again! hahahaha! than the auntie bookshop ask yas and cherie to join also for the sec 1 orientation! hehehehhe! got income for holidaes at least.

ya rite after tat me n cherie went to get the jab at raffles clinic. dammit! tot the whole thing was onli like 40 ah but wat the hell. muz pay 57.75. gosh i was so freakin broke after tat. 20 bucks jzu for a few minutes consultation juz answering yes or no question! how freakin ex is tat!!!!! feeel so cheated! ya niwaes after tat went to watch exorcist the beginning. BAH! not scary at all. suspense onli. hahhaahaha but the farnie part was when the possesed woman said " do u still want to fuck me?" WHAHAHAHAHAH. wat the hell. damn farnie seh. talkin bout this kind of movies reminds me of juon 2. hahahahaha stupid show. a lot of farnie scenes with stupid ghost.

wed.... the start of skool again. the intrahouse games was so...dotz. i rather slack ah. so not interesting. than had 1.5 hrs of pw lecture on oral presentation. wah damn sian. tried my bez to stay awake seh.
ya than had odac. did the preparation for open house again. tat onli ended at 4.30pm but tats not the end. at 5pm got the yunnan preparation. tired seh. stayed back n finished it onli around 7.30pm. i was pooped by tat time. but than got to meet myz lil cuzzin who was in sec 1. she wanted me to help her with her maths coz she got a maths exam teh nxt dae. so sat with her at macs from 8pm to 10pm. by the time i got home, lying down on the bed was teh ferst thing i did. fell asleep while watching CSI. weee the new season of CSI is gonna be on shown soon. on tuesdae 10 pm. cannot wait!

well.. for todae haahahahha was freakin fun ah. especially the leg race game. BAH! hahahahaha our class is so freakin idiot seh. we did ie the rafia string on our legs ah but not like teh otehre houses ah. we tied it in such a way tat we can still walk normallyah. hahahahahah the fun part was we ran to the fiish line n the other houses were still struggling ah! manz we're good! :P ahakz! oh ya finally heard n learn the skool song. not bad actualli. tats gonna be a farewell song for the year 2s ah. so fast time passed. n they are OFFICIALLY leaving. =( wel.. bez of luck to u guyz ya! happi studying!

tats basically it la... now gotta rush to watch OC!!!! hahahhahaha oh ya wanna say SELAMAT BERPUASA to all muslims ya!!!!


2:04 PM

Todae turn out to be a fun dae! weeeeee! well at ferst i cant go out ah coz need to babysit my lil bro hahahaha but my mum decided to put him at my aunt house! hahaha! lucky seh! ya so i went out. there was a dinner thing for the odac members but cant go for tat coz in the ferst place i already to go out wif cherie n the gang. :)

so met up wif cherie, shaline n vannie at orchard ferst to board the no. 36 bus. wahahaha long tim enever see vannie! misss her lotz! love her new hairstyle! totally kewl! hehehe. ya so on the bus we talk cock n ya i had so much fun teasing shaline! wahahahahha!

we went to east coast park where we meet the rest. yas & her bf faisal ( for the ferst time he join us ah.), angie & her bf shawn and si suan. nad n fat couldnt make it coz for examz and family functions! muz sae thanks to yas for comin down coz shes stiu havin her exam but ya she still came! how kewl! love ya lotz gerl! so we had dinner... manz the food was soooooo cheeesy hahahaha but nice! didnt finish .... hehehe than talk crap some more. the guyz went to play pool. itz realli amazing for them to get along very well and they realli got tons of stuff to talk bout even though they meet for the ferst time. how kewl seh! so the rest of us were taking pictures and stuff! hahahah than angie as usual start blabbering bout stuff.... Human perceptions la, her dogs havin sex ( the disgusting part is tat her female dog tried to masturbate with her sis teddy bear!!! how sick can these animal be???? ), how to resolve conflicts bla bla bla bla. so angie ah!

there are certain unexpected things happen ah. cherie should noe. manz itz totally weird. bleargh. teh tot of it iz so... soo.. paiseh? iz tat the werd to describe it? i donno. bah! the other way..... manz.. tats scary...

well... i wannna sae THANKIU for teh present the card ya! love u guyz so much!


new wallet!!!  3:16 PM

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! promos are so over! how kewl! no skool till next tuesdae! can slack big time now! finally....

chem... as usual... not enuff time.. ergh! hahaha. totally forget about teh ionic equil. forgot how to do the damn question. erghhh!!!

maths was ok... except tat i forgot certain formula like finding the vol usin integration. DAMN. the paper was do-able i guess... cant score but i hopin for a pass!!!

hm...this was my ferst time i didnt realli go out to celebrate the last dae of exam. ahahahha. weird. well... aniwae i was fasting juz now. finally finish paying back. went to the tamp. library juz now. NOT TO MUG. i repeat NOT TO MUG but to read books. missss reading lotz manz. i better clear my library fines. damn overshot 40 cents restrict my library card already. idiot. itz $6.40 onli wat. ergh. found good books juz now but too bad cannot borrow. wanted to us emy bro ezlinl but wat the hell cannot use it. -_____-"

hahahahha.. got another present todae. from jw. very cute seh the wind chime. cannot hang it for now. my lil bro will find it very amusing to play wif it.


Very cute n angelic rite!!! :) 



hm.....not so angelic after all!!! wahahaah! :P  3:23 PM

hm... todae was teh officially start of exams. got bio n malay paper 2dae. malay was quite alrite i guess. did teh compo question "perkembangan sains dan teknologi membawa musibah kepada manusia. Setujukah kamu?" ( sains n technology brings disadvantages to humans. do u agree). hope can score for malay! hopin to get an A2 at least but well... if pass tats good enuff... wrote liek at least 5 pages long on tat! madness...never done tat before actualli.


hm... bio paper..i seriously donno wat to sae... i find teh paper is do-able but a t the same tiem i find tat i don have solid stuff to write down. pluz i was kind of sick. AGAIN. sheesh. on sundae i woke n found out that i lost my voice. than to make it werst i had a flu. than todae, i was havin a slight fever. damn. wats wrong wif me? been gettin sick a lot this year. hm... not a good sign.


ive been a bit paranoid lately. thinkin tat i got kidney failure. not tat im cursin myself. but suddenly theres this pain at my lower back.hm... yeah i admit tat after i watch the chinese show about the guy who got kidney failure, ive been checking out if there is any signs of it..... well maybe the pain is becoz of not proper posture (tats wat jw suggested). can be true actualli coz been sleepin alot at the sofa lately. bleargh. shall not blabber any more bout this ya.


i think ive becum very blur lately or im sleep walkin i donno. i seriously remembner last saturdae i was sleepin on the floor in my bedroom. the next morning i foun dmyself on the sofa in the living rooom. how weird iz tat. th ebest part is tat i don even remember goin to the sofa n sleep!!! manz im realli crazieee!!! better get some rest after the promos! i fnot ill probly end up at imh!


okiez i wanna thank Caroline, Sarah 1 & 2, Fir, Saleh, Hakim, Wadi & Hilmi for the prezents! thankz ya! realli love the key chainz alotz! realli brighten my dae after the horrible exams juz now!! below are the pics of stuff i got!



Love the key chainz a lotz!! =) 



:) 



I loveeeee the shoe!!!! now i got 3 shoes!!! red, blue n green!!! =P 



Kewl pencil case huh!!!!! =) 


I'll probly scan the other 2 shoe keychains i haf after the promos ya! alritez gotta chioz now. itz muggin time!!!!!

11:21 PM

hahahahahahah! ferst of all i wanna sae thanks to everybody who wish me happi burp dae! tats realli very sweet! thankiu so much! realli makes my tat fridae special! =) ya at teh same time i wanna wish my cuzzin raudah whoz burpdae is on childrens dae also! happi burp dae ya!


ya so juz now was teh gp exam. did the essay qn on "To punish is to seek revenge. Do u agree?" Hope i wont write out of point this time around! (>_<) as for paper 2, didnt manage to complete the paper. got 3 or 4 [2]marks compre qn blank. 4 vocabs undone. and the AQ qn on passage 2 done halfway. how kewl huh! blah! luckily i wasnt the onli one! ahakz! tat kevin even better! did his summary in PENCIL! than mr nathan wrote something on his paper to make sure it will be graded! bleargh! he stiu got time to do draft seh! wat the hell!


Juz like to share with u guyz the stuff i got!



hehehehehe! lazee garfield juz like me!!!! from sha nash n mairah 



Cute butterfly earrings from Alpha!! :P 


Chocs from Cherie! yum yum! 



tempted???? WAHAHAHHAH :P 


*Cherie got slot in a pic cum bdae card in the box. and damn it was a pic of me on my last year bdae! won be puttin the pic up! =P so not gonna put it up ah! so teh toot seh the pic! whahahahaha

11:24 AM

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