Ferstly wanna sae thankz to cherie for makin the effort to message the rest about our plan to meet up. sorry i didnt help u to message the rest ya. well it didnt really werk out as wat we planned. everybody iz juz too busy with their own stuff. seriously i admit that i juz cant be bothered already. itz juz so sickening to plan n plan but than in the end itz not the whole grp turn up or the plan cant be put into action. eg. wanted to celebrate the dec babies but in the end kena postpone n postpone tat everybody juz cant be bothered about it. sheesh. this week tot wanna watch the hide n seek as a gathering. but yep. u should noe by now. it didnt werk out. AGAIN. i read cheries blog. n im really really realy very sorrry about wat happen. i really appreciate the effort u put in to make this thing happen. i really do. thankz for everything ya. Love ya lotz!!!!

well tomoro iz the BIG dae for those taking their o'level results. Juz wanna wish them goodluck!!! haha. tat means tat i also can start apllying for poly!!! hehe. gonna go tp tomoro to get the application form pluz the JAE handbook. ok. actually the handbook muz pay ah. so BUY the handbook. wish me luck also eh. so i can get the course i want. neeeed all the luck in the werld.

i juz changed my internet connection to starhub one. ah... now very diff to bully my bro. at least last time singnet got the dial up password. so when i let him play he cant go net without my permission. AHAHAHAHAHAH. but now a bit hard. but stiu he donno the passsword to the user account! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. yesh im evil n i LOVE IT!!!!

N yesh i got the "boulevard of broken song" song n the music code for the song too!! yesh yesh!!!! love it manz! hope u guyz enjoy it too!!! 2:41 PM

My dad rox! haha after fridae prayers he went to th eesso mobile shop n bought for me ben n jerry!! hehehehe. so nice. yum yum. ah... speaking bout it makes me tummy craving for it. ah..... but cannot. muz save it for later eh. hahha. im a monster when it comes to bnj ice cream. :P hhahaa.

but still didnt manage to cure the sad feelin im having rite now. u noe the wed show "the proud twins" on channel 8?i saw teh vcd. the whole series!!! i wanted to buy it!!! got money already but..... no english subtitle... WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! LIKE WAT THE HELLL. muz wait painfully every dae till wed arrive. Itz 40 pluz episodes. very long eh. hahaha but this makes me more determine to learn mandarin! HAHA! probly after the 9 week course i can buy th evcd already!!! hehehehehe.

on wednesdae went out with shaline n cherie to bugis. been ages since ive been there. aiyo tat reminds me i muz add the plant thingy at action city on my list. didnt shop la. no $$$. juz walk walk window shop. hehe. cherie bought a top from bossini ( i think) and shaline bought a handphone key chain. me? juz buy old changkee. had fun going out with them!!!

finally i went for my dental appointment. hhaah tat also after the retainer tingy got something wrong. not tat i don wanna go. but juz lazee to go out. afterwhich i went to popular store as usual to look around. i can go crazee man juz looking at the files. ok i admit. i got obsessions with files eh. i cant believe i splurge my money on files?? cannot tahan la. the baby looney tunes file itz toooo cute!! bought my little bro a justice league file also. think i spent 8 bucks on the files. n THERES MORE OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!! erghhhh.. i want more! haha.

this coming weekend kak mimah is gonna get married. ahhhhh. the last thing i wanna be iz to be a kendarat!!( the peeps who gave out stuff) sheeeesh. i rather wash plates seh. itz juz a bleargh thing seh. soo in a way im not lookin forward to it. i noe i sound mean la but i don wanna b eth estupid kendarat.Juz gif me something else to do. YUCK YUCK YUCK. GROSS GROSS GROSS. the idea izjuz stupid. bah. itz juz me la.

ah.... the full moon iz juz nice tonight. itz orangey moon. nice. took a pic of it. how i wish i noe how to draw. than at least after the photo is develope i can try painting it or something.. but my art skills is a total disaster. haha.

OH YA. THose cheapo like me. WATSON got sale. can get m&m at $0.99. ah.... bought 2 packets of m&m peanut butter. deliciaso!!

one mor ething. when are we watching hide n seek???

last thing. my aunt gif this stupid joke. itz a bit racist ah. but remember itz juz a joke. last time theres a station bukit merah rite. but it got change to red hill. than she ask why do u think itz change. n she said "coz the way itz said. PUKI meraah!!" hahahahah. 4:05 PM

firstly i wanna thank kak nani for treating me lunch on sundae. hahha thankz eh! so nice seh!

well im kind of stressed up about the course i wanna take at poly. today straits time shows that more students prefer takig the life sciences course. dammit. it has been increasing over the years. im very worried. i donno whetehr ill be able to get a placing. itz driving me crazy!!! erghh!!!!!!!
putting that aside. remember the guy, adam, i told u about when i went to tp open house. he's on the straits time paper today. hahha.

ergh. can these blardie students get their results asap. sheesh. im sick of waiting. 2:51 AM

yesh! ive completed my project yesterdae. the only thing to do now iz to find the perfect spot and hang it on the wall. i think i bcum deaf a little bit. i was drilling the freaking shells for quite sometime. instead of ME using the earplugz. it was my bro who used it. -____-" like wat the hell. but it was fun. spent the afternoon drilling n tying the shells to the netting. wanted to take a pic of it but my cam no battery la. maybe next time i show it eh.

so.. i went back to skool yesterdae. late afternoon. reach skool onli at about 5 pluz. close to six actually. busy doin experiment wat! misss them so much seh!!! hahahaah! manz should have come earlier than can meet up with nash, cherri, my yuhanis and the rest. but yeah got to meeet them. dammit. forgot to bring my camera seh. if not can take tons of pics. i noe ziting and cherie DYING to take pics with me lor! :P HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHA. me n cherie went to tm for a while to get my starfish. we were walking aroung n guess who we met? MUHD, RAZALI AND HAIKAL. hahaha shopping eh tat lalali. n another suprising thing. LALALI OF ALL PEOPLE DYE HIS HAIR. hahahahahahahhaa. the toot toot lalali suddenly bcum the hip lalali. hahha. ok muhd have upgraded himself. no more spectz. now contacts. haikal no change. stiu the same. it happen tat i took the same bus with muhd. so we talked. yeah n guess wat. he said teh maths hes taking in poly is jc maths. N HE IS PLANNING TO TAKE FURTHER MATHS! crazee. madness. not tat he cannot take it la. but im thinking in terms of teh shit i went thru last year of taking c*maths. c*maths cannot handle. can u imagine f*maths. well. maybe itz different at poly i guess. but cant be much different rite. maybe the onli thing is since ur older ull be surrounded by 17 year old. bunch of immatures eh. ahahahah! as if im tat mature ah! but seriously from the impression i get from the open house. gosh itz gonna be a long year. now i get what kak nani means. at least i went in when im 18. maybe still in teh same frequency ah. but she entered poly when shes 19 after her A's. so maybe a bit diff.

oh ya. I signed up for a 9 week mandarin course at Al- Ansar. itz on a mondae at 8pm to 10pm. the ferst lesson is gonna be on the 7 of march. kind of excited! hehehe. eh cherie now i can speak chinese with u eh! i mean soon la. oh ya cherie u got see the ad about 3 karao-ok vcds??? got this guy sing "...... shing leh " something like tat ah. u noe the title???? anybody noe tellme eh. the song very nice.

oh ya teh movie hide and seek iis Out!!!! heeheheheh! "Come out come out whereever u are......" way kewl!!!!. but the unkewl thing is theres 2 freaking endings. diff cinema show diff ending. LIKE WAT THE HELL. WANT US TO SEEE TWICE IZZIT. ( as if i never done tat b4! wahahahaha.)

ok la tats all! nitoz! 3:59 AM

Hey hey! Itz been a kewl dae. Went to Temasek poly open house with fat. The place was packed. I juz looked around the applied science and the business building. Speaking bout business. No sight of angie. Haiya sad ah. I wonder she’s involved. Can u imagine if she’s one of the tour guide? HAHAHAHAH! The tot of it makes me laugh. But saw shu jun though. We got weird expressions from people ah. Coz went there using skool uniform. HAHA! The way the business students present about the courses offered in business was farnie and kewl. Theres a new course in TP business. Retail management. HAHAH! Got a cute guy eh! Adam. Haha. The presentation was amazing race cum survivor cum who wants be a millionaire. There were 4 teams each representing the diff course in the business. He represented the retail course. Duh! Dammit got a very scary news. The no. of intake for bio medical science is very little. The intake is 200. but itz not totally bio med. Itz made up of bio med and bio tech. like wth! Stress seh .
Met quite a no. people todae. Saw liza with shakir ( he happens to be my pri. Skool frend), azmi and rashidah.

I went off to tm while fat went home coz she got maths integration test. Thankz for accompanying eh. Goodluck for ur test.

I went to tm to get these stuff for my next “experiment”:-



String! 



Shells! 



The "mat" 

The experiment is:


My next "project" ! haha 

TADAA!! Well tats roughly how itz gonna look like. Well ihope it will turn out ok. Gonna drill the shell tomoro. after tat i cans tart makin it! wooohoo!!!

Below are the picz when I went to Sentosa tat time.


View From the cable car! 


The fountain. 


The flower display! 


Nice eh! 

Wednesday is a really good dae to watch television. The 9pm Chinese show “You are the one” is damn funny! Alwaz laugh my ass off. Tat Raymond, meili, simon etc. damn good. Pluz at 9pm also got CSI. The new season! Way cool ah. I record the csi of coz! But theres alwaz a repeat on sundae. But heck cant wait that long. Than at 10.30pm got the Chinese show “The proud twins”. Farnie, got fighting scenes bla bla bla. 2 hrs of it itz not enuff. Yuhuan iz damn thick skin seh but ya he’s really good looking ah. Cherie u must watch this show.

Ok la tats basically itz. Chiowz 3:06 PM

Helllo again peepz! Ya i wanna wish a very very Belated Chinese new year!!! haha. life has been ok i guess. ill juz summarise wat happen eh. on the fferst dae of chinese new year went out with my aunt and cuzzzin. went to Sentosa. itz the "flower festival" and they decorated the garden with beautiful flowers. Than heres this rooster decorated with flowers too. haha! nice. i haven upload thepics yet la. lazee.

tha on fridae went to watch canstatine with fat. not bad la the movie. itz kind of complex to explain it but it was interesting.

on sundae went to the religious talk. after which i went to times at tampines mall with kak nani. THERES A LOT OF GREAT BOOKS AH. BUT. THE SAD THING U CANT FIND THIS GREAT BOOKS AT THE LIBRARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so tempted to buy the books but damn ex leh!!!! muz wait for MPH sale. than can get at 5 bucks!! errgh i wonder when the sale gonna be.

talking bout sale theres a giordano sale!!!!! 40% off!!!! wooohoooo!! can buy jeans!! great man!! hm... i hope the denim jacket will be affordable. >_<

sheesh. i realise that ever since i quit skool my entries itz alwaz short ah. wat u expect seh. hahaha

beeen spending my time playing this online game. god dammit. i am becoming mo0re childish seh. hwo old am i this year?? IM TURNING 18 BUT YET IM STILL PLAYING SOME KIDDY FANTASY GAME!!!!! sheesh. cant help it la. very addictive. on sat i played the game till 3 am in the morning. if u have notice ive been mia from msn or alwaz bz mode durin msn . tats bcoz ive been playing the freaking game. well maybe i will stop playing after i start skool again. for now i juz be a kiddy 18 year old yeah! hahhaa! 3:40 PM

If you notice i haven been really updating eh. so might as well don update rite! ill juz summarise wat ive been doing eh. I finished reading 2 books tat i borrowed from pasir ris library. The ferst one is " No Body's Perfect". Itz about teenagers who suffers from eating disorders(anorexic, bulimic), inflict pain on themselves by cutting tehemselves etc. Itz about stories about their lives and how they managed to get over it. Kind of ineteresting. They expressed their feelings through letters and poems. There's motivational quotes and also tips given by the prof. The other book "Confessions of the NOT it Girl". Hhahahah! fun seh! Had a good laugh while reading it! She keeps complaining about her butt and how she imagines her love life fantasy!

After so long i ran my 2.4km last week followed by 50 sits up and push ups. dammit. my body was aching!! strain my muscles also. wahaha! but it felt good! gonna run again tomoro.

Waa tat blardie Lime magazine cheat my money seh! I bought the mag coz there was a poly guide book. some guide book. like as if it really help eh. interview with jamie yeo and some guy who went to poly. ( Waa tat jamie study in states and i cant believe shes a straight A student in high school! but the sad thing is when she tried applying for uni at nus, they didnt recognise her high school diploma) Than tehy stated the courses available. itz damn dotz ah. if like tat might as well i juz go to the school website for info rite! haiya. Theres this ex-jc gerl who commented tat neither jc nor poly provide wat she wanted. guess wat. i agree with her.

I finally make the brownie nut cake. hm.. i donno. haven tasted it. wat do u guyz think?


The cake 


..... 

5:09 PM

Read this at a bulletin board on frendzter... Itz realli touching

Message: Your Baby Girl

Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now...I so wanted to be your littlegirl. I don't quite understand what has happened.I was so excited when I began realizing myexistance. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place.I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty faralong in my developing, yet not near ready toleave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping. Even from my earliest days,I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you.Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. Iheard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped youwould be better soon. I wondered why you cried so
much.

One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurtfor you. I couldn't imagine why you wereso unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened. Avery mean Monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I beganscreaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me.

The monster got closer and closer as I wasscreaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please! Mommy, help me." Complete
terror is all I
felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I
couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the pain i can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I
begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it
ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love
me.

I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't, all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart
breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things
that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love
you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel
into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me away to a wonderful place. Then I was happy. I asked the angel what was the thing was that killed me. He
answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is, I guess that's the name of the
monster.

I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had thewill, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.

It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die. Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.

Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did. Please be careful.

Love..... 3:43 PM

Hmm the onli reason im updating my blog is becoz fat is bugging me to update… Well I really didn’t do much interesting stuff. Really. Seriously. Comp games, tv and juz nonsense photos. You will realise i really got nothing better else to do. Ahakz. Well tats it I guess.


Black & White 



Old faded Photo 



Reminds me of Autumn 


Haha! My messy room!! 



Haha! Can u spot Jack- Jack?? 


How i wish i can get rid of the stuff!!! 


My Tong Sampah!  

5:36 PM

Itz a totally great weekend ah! hahhahaha! well i didnt do much stuff and didnt realli go out but itz stiu great ah! hahah let see.. on saturdae.. after teaching my cuz tuition i asked him to play computer games with me. played virtual cop la, lose ur marbles la. ( i noe itz childish but heck!) than we spent 6 HOURS playing harry potter and the chamber of secrets! hahahaha! we onli stop bcoz the comp was freakin hot! hahahahah! itz soo super fun ah!!!

than on sundae went to support the odac peeps at singapore river. not bad la. me n cherie got a reaaali goood sitting place!!! itz windy, sheltered from the sun, got a good view of the river raft race and the rock climbing pluz a good view of shuai ker ( i donno how u spell it la!) HAHAHAHAH! cherie was DEEERRRRRROOOOOOOLING!!!! she cant get HIM out of her head. HAHAHAHAHAH!!!! and not to forget the song LALA which she find ridiculous was also stuck in her head!!! hahahah! the pizza team got the second placing. well for the rest! well-done too!!! than me cherie and crystal went to eastpoint to have dessert! than meet my parents to eat dinner. i was sooo tired (i also donno why ) than i slept around 8.40pm. sheeesh. AND MY BRO GOT A NEW PHONE AH. dammit. so action seh. idiot.

if u notice i have remove the taggy board. juz cant stand tat blardie BITCH scolding vulgaritiez at my frendz! FUCK U LA DAMMIT. BITCH. ASSHOLE.BLARDIE NINCOMPOOP. I donno how the hell u get the link to my blog but can u juz FUCK OFF! 12:43 PM

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